Heartache

I can’t fucking stop. The thoughts are consuming me. Did you ever even love me? Was any of it real? Was I lying to myself? What the hell do I do now? Love hurts and I hate it. This pain is excruciating. Everything hurts, my whole body is sore. I’m going crazy, I’m getting sick. Withdrawals are no joke for real. Give in to me. I hate “moving on”, does NOT feel right AT ALL. Not one bit.

I lost my best friend, my lover, my better half, my significant other, my baby, darling, honey bunches, turiyrbo, sweetie pie, love bun, poophead, cutie patootie, my handsome…

Night

This time is the saddest… Thoughts run free and the wounds find themselves open once again; no matter how hard you tried to heal them through the day… Your mind is a dangerous thing at night, it corrupts every thought, memory, idea… The thoughts make it hard to sleep, and once you finally find slumber………you wake up once again and realize the nightmare of getting through that next day with the feelings of last night.

My cousin wrote this, and it’s so relevant that I’m gonna leave this here…

Fading

"Everyday passes, and it feels like we are fading.
Turning into nothing, and for some reason I’m waiting.
I don’t know what for, but I know its not the same,
Look who you’ve become, just someone else it’s insane.
I do miss us, how we used to cuddle and shit,
But its different now, no relationship.
Two peas in a pod that’s what they all said,
But who knew our love like this would some day end.
It breaks my heart to see us go,
But like u said its for the best, I know.
I’m on my own now, with no one to claim, trying to keep myself busy gotta stay in my own lane.
I hope this is all worth it in the end like u said it was,
Its breakin my heart just writing this poem about us. Dont feel bad, cause you said you’d do better,
Just tell me when the time comes and tell me that you’ve met “her.” “

the smallest things—ejp.

thinking of the smallest things is freakin me out man.

the way your eyes get big when you talked about something that excited you…
the stare i’d catch from the corner of my eye…
the way your fingertips would trace lines on my skin while we were half asleep…
the moment your lips would touch me and i’d fall apart into you…
the panic in your voice when i’d tell you something you wouldn’t wanna hear…
hearing your voice every night before bed…
the softest “i love you’s” paired with the tiniest kisses in the morning…
the way you’d breathe in my scent the moment we reunited…
when you’d get so frustrated when things wouldn’t go your way!
the way you’d make me really think about things…
making baby faces at me when i’d pick the movie…
omg, even when you’d get so excited that i’d stay when you’d fart! hahaha

ugh. i hate this. it’s like i’m torturing myself…I don’t even know what else to do man.

bagmilk:

sorry for replying in  0.2 seconds haha its not like i was waiting hahaha

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"It’s 4am—
You’re sleeping.
I’m crying."

6 word poem (via intensional)

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Oh, love.

I think it’s really weird…Venting on here. It’s like I re-discovered tumblr.

I miss you so much, wtf. All you’re proving with this is that you are really good at making bad decisions. “being in a relationship is doing more bad than good for me”. HOW?!? If it was going well, how in the hell is it bad? You’re so confusing and I’m just getting more and more irritated thinking about it. You can’t deny that you love me obviously! The only thing you’ve proven is that you’re really good at lying to yourself. 😪

"You had me at a point where I would’ve left the entire world behind for you."

2:03am, I really loved you that much. (via hoetion)

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"Not everything happens for a reason. Sometimes life just sucks."

Alexa Chung  (via silvike)

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